Improvements

So I am a month behind on New Years Resolutions. But there are some improvements that I need to make to my life. I have been thinking about them a lot lately. They consume my thoughts during the day, before I got to bed at night, when I wake up in the morning. The more they consume my thoughts the more frightening it becomes to make these improvements. But alas they do need to be made. To make me a better person, to make me a better friend, co-worker, girlfriend, daughter, etc. To make me better.
I am the worst at having things that I want to do, want to change, need to change, and just sitting there basically waiting for those things to change themselves. "Ah, I'll do that tomorrow..." and then tomorrow comes and goes. Why do we put off those things that are most important? Why do we put off the things that will change our lives to the better? I think it is because we are creatures of habit. We get up, we get ready, we face the day, we are exhausted, we sleep. We convince ourselves that we need more time in the day, we need more time in the week, we need more money, we need a better car, a better house. We convince ourselves that to be better we need MORE... but we don't. The only thing we need more of, is God. And where do we place him on our priority list?
We all want to be better people, but are we willing to take the steps be becoming that person? Are we willing to re-prioritize our life so that God is the one on top, the one in control? Are we willing to move forward, not backwards?
When I say I wan't to make improvements in my life, I don't mean that I want some bigger better apartment, or more money. I mean there are things inside of myself that I need to improve, to make better. Things that I put off constantly to another day. But Today... today is the day. I need to stop counting on tomorrow and do what needs to be done today.

In other news: I miss my family a lot. I just want to run away to visit them, right this moment. Probably not a good idea. I've got improvements to make.