Random Thoughts:
Sugar Coating our Statements:
I decided that having a boyfriend who rarely sugar coats things is a great thing. At first it completely frustrated me, mostly because we (a society) are soo used to sugar coating everything for people.
But not him, he RARELY sugar coats anything. Sometimes this can be a bad thing, but mostly it is good.
As his girlfriend it is a very nice quality actually, although sometimes it is harsh, he is always honest. He never gives me an answer just because he thinks that is what I want to hear. Because of this, when he says things, I believe him 100% of the time. I never have to consider if he is saying things just to get something from me, I never think that he is just saying it to say it, or saying it because it's the right thing to say. When he calls me beautiful, I know he means it. It really is a blessing in our relationship. I never have to guess what he means, or if he is just saying it. He says what he means. And the funnier part is the times in which he does sugar coat something for me, he immediately feels the need to tell me.
Example:
Me: "ohh you did that just for me?"
Him: "Yes I did"
....(5 seconds pass)
Him: " No, sorry No I didn't do that just for you, but I am glad that it had a positive effect for you as well"
It cracks me up every time. Really, you couldn't even let me think just for 10 seconds that it was just for me? Well that is ok... I appreciate the truth.
Clean this House:
I am busy. When I say that I am no exaggerating, if you think I am, I will show you my google calendar. I am BUSY! But business is no excuse for the disaster my house (insert apartment, but house makes me feel more grown up) has become. It is a wreck. I really really want to simplify my life. Get rid of stuff in my apartment that really I will never use. Get rid of stuff in my closet that has been sitting in the same box since the day I moved in over a year ago. Get rid of clothes that I never wear. But the problem is... I start, I do good for a little while... then I break. I start convincing myself that of course I will wear that. Ohh that little nick nack has so much sentimental value. WHAT IS MY PROBLEM. Will someone come to my house and just get rid of this stuff for me?? My sister has promised that while she is up here for Easter that she will clean my closet out. Ohhh I wish she was coming this weekend. I want it cleannnnnnnnnnnn. Clean house = Clean mind. No wonder my mind is so cluttered. Even more incentive? My boyfriend is supposed to bring my new king sized mattress to my place this weekend... something needs to happen between now and then, because he is NOT seeing my place how it is now. (Which is a direct result of me visiting him too much ;) ).
VACATION...please?
Ok I know I was just in Florida over a month and a half ago... but I am so ready for a vacation. Being home SICK SICK SICK last week for 3 days doesn't count either. Mostly I am ready to see my family. A month and one week from today I will be flying to Houston to see my parents and little brothers with the boyfriend, and I am so so so so so excited. But can I really last a month? As long as it goes as fast as Feb, I supposed. But there goes my whole goal of living in the present and not living event to event in life. Ohh well, always a goal to achieve.
Speaking of Goals to Achieve .... I heard a comedian today that said "They always told us in school that practice made perfect. Then they would tell you that no one was perfect. ... So I just stopped practicing." haha
Ok enough random thoughts for today.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
Improvements
So I am a month behind on New Years Resolutions. But there are some improvements that I need to make to my life. I have been thinking about them a lot lately. They consume my thoughts during the day, before I got to bed at night, when I wake up in the morning. The more they consume my thoughts the more frightening it becomes to make these improvements. But alas they do need to be made. To make me a better person, to make me a better friend, co-worker, girlfriend, daughter, etc. To make me better.
I am the worst at having things that I want to do, want to change, need to change, and just sitting there basically waiting for those things to change themselves. "Ah, I'll do that tomorrow..." and then tomorrow comes and goes. Why do we put off those things that are most important? Why do we put off the things that will change our lives to the better? I think it is because we are creatures of habit. We get up, we get ready, we face the day, we are exhausted, we sleep. We convince ourselves that we need more time in the day, we need more time in the week, we need more money, we need a better car, a better house. We convince ourselves that to be better we need MORE... but we don't. The only thing we need more of, is God. And where do we place him on our priority list?
We all want to be better people, but are we willing to take the steps be becoming that person? Are we willing to re-prioritize our life so that God is the one on top, the one in control? Are we willing to move forward, not backwards?
When I say I wan't to make improvements in my life, I don't mean that I want some bigger better apartment, or more money. I mean there are things inside of myself that I need to improve, to make better. Things that I put off constantly to another day. But Today... today is the day. I need to stop counting on tomorrow and do what needs to be done today.
In other news: I miss my family a lot. I just want to run away to visit them, right this moment. Probably not a good idea. I've got improvements to make.
I am the worst at having things that I want to do, want to change, need to change, and just sitting there basically waiting for those things to change themselves. "Ah, I'll do that tomorrow..." and then tomorrow comes and goes. Why do we put off those things that are most important? Why do we put off the things that will change our lives to the better? I think it is because we are creatures of habit. We get up, we get ready, we face the day, we are exhausted, we sleep. We convince ourselves that we need more time in the day, we need more time in the week, we need more money, we need a better car, a better house. We convince ourselves that to be better we need MORE... but we don't. The only thing we need more of, is God. And where do we place him on our priority list?
We all want to be better people, but are we willing to take the steps be becoming that person? Are we willing to re-prioritize our life so that God is the one on top, the one in control? Are we willing to move forward, not backwards?
When I say I wan't to make improvements in my life, I don't mean that I want some bigger better apartment, or more money. I mean there are things inside of myself that I need to improve, to make better. Things that I put off constantly to another day. But Today... today is the day. I need to stop counting on tomorrow and do what needs to be done today.
In other news: I miss my family a lot. I just want to run away to visit them, right this moment. Probably not a good idea. I've got improvements to make.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Twenty Ten
2010, Twenty Ten, Ten. I am not too fond of 2010 purely for the fact that it is awkward to say. Do you say "Two Thousand Ten" every time? Because the abbreviated "Ten" just sounds weird. Personally I am a fan of "Twenty Ten". But what about in 5 years and you want to say "Remember back in.... ten?". I think '99 was easier. Even '09 was easier. "Remember back in '99" "Remember back in '09?" ... Ten just doesn't flow. Oh well, here is to Twenty-Ten. One month in to Twenty-Ten.
I really wanted to write a meaningful post today, but my thoughts are all over the place. I don't think I could get a meaningful comprehensive thought out.
I do want to say though that I love my bible study and the girls in it. God has really blessed me and surrounded me with woman who are so strong in their Faith, willing to admit weakness, but mostly to support one another in the day to day struggles, celebrations, and things that make up our lives. It is so exciting to get together with them and talk about the Bible. All of our approaches to it are completely different, but it's awesome because I walk away learning so much more from them than just my own reading.
It is amazing to have such a good group of friends, who are open, honest and willing to tell you things even if you don't want to hear it. Who are willing to stand up and support you, to ask you the hard questions. It has been such a blessing in my life and I truly look forward to our weekly meetings. The book we have been reading through has been great as well, and is really challenging me to be a better person. A better co-worker, friend, daughter, girlfriend, sister. If you are ever looking for a book to challenge you, to create change in you, than you should read Peacemaker by Ken Sande.
Ok, I'll leave this post just like this because again my thoughts are all over the place, and I doubt I am making sense.
I really wanted to write a meaningful post today, but my thoughts are all over the place. I don't think I could get a meaningful comprehensive thought out.
I do want to say though that I love my bible study and the girls in it. God has really blessed me and surrounded me with woman who are so strong in their Faith, willing to admit weakness, but mostly to support one another in the day to day struggles, celebrations, and things that make up our lives. It is so exciting to get together with them and talk about the Bible. All of our approaches to it are completely different, but it's awesome because I walk away learning so much more from them than just my own reading.
It is amazing to have such a good group of friends, who are open, honest and willing to tell you things even if you don't want to hear it. Who are willing to stand up and support you, to ask you the hard questions. It has been such a blessing in my life and I truly look forward to our weekly meetings. The book we have been reading through has been great as well, and is really challenging me to be a better person. A better co-worker, friend, daughter, girlfriend, sister. If you are ever looking for a book to challenge you, to create change in you, than you should read Peacemaker by Ken Sande.
Ok, I'll leave this post just like this because again my thoughts are all over the place, and I doubt I am making sense.
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
December, Winter, Dentist, Parties
Tis the Season!! This the season for snow (not for us yet), Christmas Parties, Ski Trip Planning,cookies, baking, Caroling, lots and lots of Christmas music and my boyfriend to be incredibly busy with work. The joys of working for FedEx.
I keep getting the evil eye, mean looks, and bad comments when I say I am ready for snow. BUT I AM. Sorry everyone. Yes I realize it will come soon enough, and we will tire of it quickly. But I am ready. I need a little Christmas feeling outside. Especially before I head south for the actual holiday. It was weird to wake up this morning and it to be 50 degrees outside! But the temp is falling again, so my coat will still go to good use today.
I went to the dentist yesterday day. Good news: No Cavities. Bad News: Today my lips are chapped like no other. Darn gloves.
12 days until I leave for Florida for Christmas! I am very excited to be in Disney World again, but more so I am excited to see my family. We will all be together this holiday. Dad, Mom, Jake and Joe arrive on the 19th, as do Miah, Linds (with baby on board). I will get there the 20th. Emmie and Andy will arrive sometime between the 20th and the 23rd. The joys of Air Force life. I am super excited that Miah and Linds found out they will be having a baby boy. Noah Stephen. Emmie and Andy won't know what they are having until .. end of January I believe.
I am incredibly excited to become an Aunt. Although I wish I lived closer to one of them, it is still exciting. What an exciting time in life. The ability to bring another life into the world. I can't even imagine "growing" another human being for 9 months (really closer to 10).
Well, heres to this useless post. Start enjoying the season everyone!!
I keep getting the evil eye, mean looks, and bad comments when I say I am ready for snow. BUT I AM. Sorry everyone. Yes I realize it will come soon enough, and we will tire of it quickly. But I am ready. I need a little Christmas feeling outside. Especially before I head south for the actual holiday. It was weird to wake up this morning and it to be 50 degrees outside! But the temp is falling again, so my coat will still go to good use today.
I went to the dentist yesterday day. Good news: No Cavities. Bad News: Today my lips are chapped like no other. Darn gloves.
12 days until I leave for Florida for Christmas! I am very excited to be in Disney World again, but more so I am excited to see my family. We will all be together this holiday. Dad, Mom, Jake and Joe arrive on the 19th, as do Miah, Linds (with baby on board). I will get there the 20th. Emmie and Andy will arrive sometime between the 20th and the 23rd. The joys of Air Force life. I am super excited that Miah and Linds found out they will be having a baby boy. Noah Stephen. Emmie and Andy won't know what they are having until .. end of January I believe.
I am incredibly excited to become an Aunt. Although I wish I lived closer to one of them, it is still exciting. What an exciting time in life. The ability to bring another life into the world. I can't even imagine "growing" another human being for 9 months (really closer to 10).
Well, heres to this useless post. Start enjoying the season everyone!!
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